After this weekend, I realized two things: People are shit and I don’t need anyone to make me happy.
Chasing feelings and trying to match with the ‘perfect’ guy was actually making me unhappy
When I downloaded Hinge and Bumble, I didn’t know what to expect. I also didn’t know what I was looking for. I just got out of a 5-year cohabited relationship, so the last thing I wanted was to jump into another.
I didn’t really have any expectations other than wanting to meet new people and get free dinner. I never intended for things to get so crazy and intense.
Dating became my unhealthy escape
Within 3 weeks, I found myself on a dating high. I was going out all the time, talking to 10 guys at a time, and sometimes going on multiple dates per day.
Yes, there were some fun and memorable moments. But there were also some bad ones with people I wish I could forget. I even landed myself in some dangerous situations.
It became exhausting and mentally draining. Online dating became my unhealthy escape. I was focusing so much of my energy on other people, that I forgot to take care of what mattered most: myself.
I’m putting my dating life on pause
I’m taking a break from the online digital landscape of swiping culture. It probably won’t be forever. But this is what I need right now. With 8 billion people in the world, I doubt my soulmate is a swipe away. But then again life is bizarre, so I won’t rule anything out.
Create space for what matters
I’m on a personal mission to create space for what matters and eliminate anything that strips away my joy. Life is too damn short to spend time worrying about other people or wondering why he never called.
The best things in life come when we’re not looking for them. Do not chase people or feelings. Don’t worry about things that are out of your control. Just do you and let things unfold naturally.
Love yourself first
The greatest love is the one you have for yourself. Go pursue your goals, chase your big-scary dreams, embrace being alone, and learn to love yourself entirely ❤
